2 Months Of Phone Pics!

I knowwww. Its MONDAY! I should be doing my motivation mondays.. but i didint have time to make a video. So ill do it tomorrow :)

I used to see all these moms of new babies leave blogging for a while, and would always say they just dont have time, and id think "how do you not have time?? They sleep all the time!" Well

NOW i get it. HOLY busy! Granted im back to work doing pictures and am getting swamped with that.. but even when im not working.. WOW. HOLY busy!

ANYWAY..... Here is our month in phone pics.
(This is the end of September and all of October, minus Halloween)

Adjusting To New Baby {Week 2&3}

As mentioned in my previous post, week 1 was just great. But week 2, i had some personal struggles.

Baiden was still amazing and super easy, and Braylee was still attention seeking, maybe a little bit more than week 1, but still not too bad. But for ME, all my stress and emotions that i had been suppressing, started to hit me hard. Jeff goes into work at 3:30am and drives truck, so he can NOT go to work tired. You just cant drive a semi truck sleepy. So i get up all night by myself. Well all the NICU drama, emergency D&C drama, photo shoots, being stressed about editing, and now adding in the lack of sleep.... I finally had a breakdown.

I was super moody, emotional, and stressed out week 2 and 3. It was crunch time on editing. I was really feeling very overwhelmed. I was feeling cooped up and like my life was just a blur! Like i didnt know where my day went! The 2 hour feedings, trying to attend to a 3 year old, trying to edit, i barely even fit time in for me to eat meals at a normal time (breakfast at 2pm... really??), get ready, or even shower. Overwhelmed is in understatement.

My amazing husband is responsible for holding me together and getting me through the days. He is so supportive, says just what i need to hear. Come home from long days at work with flowers and is so eager to help. I dont even have to ask. I have my amazing family, close friends, and sweet neighbors to thank too! I dont think we made dinner for a good week and a half after we brought Baiden home. We received gifts, diapers, cards, calls, just OVERWHELMING love and caring. Basically my negative overwhelmed feelings, and my positive overwhelmed feelings, kinda evened out. I was just a big emotional mess, positive and negative!

WEEK 3: The beginning of week 3 i think i had another break down. I'd take a shower and just BAWL. I had no control over my emotions but boy did it feel good to just let it out! BUT we have good news! Week 3 was when i started feeling a little more together. Getting the hang of things. Feeling good! There was a sense of calm that week. Mostly cuz i got my wedding edited and finished only 2 days late :) What a relief! Things were just great. It was a nice break before MORE stress...

At the end of week 3, Braylee woke up one night just crying and coughing. I went into her room and there it was! The croup barky cough :( Braylee gets it SOO easily. I dont even know where she got it. We seriously went out of the house like twice sense Baiden was born :( So we took her to the ER to get the steriod shot before it got worse and to protect the new tiny baby. That worked! No more croupy cough.. but Bray had a good nasty cough for the next week... HOLY ANXIETY!!!!

And dont you even fret... week 4... things got even worse as far as sickness. But ill talk about all that in my week 4&5 post... basically... PRAY FOR US! :(

Adjusting To New Baby.. {Week 1}

Alright. Lets talk about how we are doing with new baby :)

I heard that going from 1 kid to 2 kids is the hardest. After that (kid #3,4 etc) is easy peasy. And well, i dont have 3 kids, nor will i probably ever have 3 kids, but it makes sense! I mean, your fist kid is used to ALL the attention, ALL the toys to themselves etc. Yea, they play with other kids here and there on play dates, day care, school, whatever. But they always get to go home to being the ONLY kid! So where there is a new sibling.. all that changes.

Now week one for us was BLISSFUL! So amazing.

We were at the hospital for 3 days with room service, nurses to help, great food, and babysitters at night so you can get some sleep! Braylee was on vacation mode with her cousin Kallee and was just loving life!

Braylee LOVES her brother. She gets the biggest smile when she see's him. Always says "Thats my baby BROTHER!" "He's so cute mom!". She always wants to hold him and help anyway she can. 

She'd come to the hospital, get so excited over brother, and then say "k cha-chee" (thats what she calls my sister). "Lets go to your house to play". She seriously was having the time of her life haha.

 When we left the hospital, we went to go get Braylee, and she did not want to come home with us haha. Kinda made me sad.

 We had a game plan for Braylee to make sure she didnt feel "replaced" or have resentment toward brother. We planned that Jeff and i would takes turns having one on one time. Take Braylee out for ice cream of something. Jeff was so excited to take Braylee to dance during his week home from work and Braylee was too, she is such a daddy's girl.

 (4 days old going to first doc appt)

 But even when brother was home with us.. Braylee was SO good with her brother. Always wanting to help, always wanting to hold, its the cutest thing.

But Braylee with US, is a whole other story!

During the fist week, Braylee was REALLY testing her limits with us. She'd find the SILLIEST things to make a big deal about. She became more mischievous, sneaky, and down right defiant. She'd do something bad, we'd get after her about it, and she'd just smile and laugh! (little terd lol).

But Jeff was home from work so it wasnt all that bad! We'd take turns with our patients level with who dealt with which kid haha.

 Ok now for Baiden's side of the situation and coming home!

Baiden is the EASIEST baby! He is so so chill and SO super sweet. Braylee was a hard newborn. She wouldnt sleep, was backwards with her nights and days when she did sleep, and developed colic which made for a REALLY fussy baby. Jeff works REALLY early, and LONG days (especially during the summer when Bray was born). And he drives truck. He can NOT go to work sleepy. So i was doing the up at night thing all by myself, then she'd be up all day and Jeff would be gone all day. I was a new mommy, it was just HARD.

 Baiden though is so sleepy! He sleeps all night, all day. Well at night he wakes up about every 2 hours to eat, but then goes right back to sleep! And Jeff was home the first week (didnt do that with Braylee cuz we NEEDED the money). So getting up at night was actually fun!

I loved the new baby thing and snuggling him at night and feeding him. And i always had Jeff if i did need a break or needed to nap during the day (which i never did).

So yea, week one was AMAZING! Yes Braylee was a little difficult but not bad at all! I loved the help from hubby and everything was just wonderful. 

We had this sweet new baby and a beautiful baby girl who loved him! It is SOO amazing seeing her as a big sister. Words can not even describe the amazing feeling it is being a parent of 2 and seeing your kids interact. And having a boy is SOOO different!! My bond with him is so different.

Everyone worries "how can i POSSIBLE love another person as much as i love my first child?!". Oh, its possible. Your heart just grows 10 million times bigger! But i personally never worried about that.

What i worried about, was Braylee feeling replaced. I mean, it is what it is, newborns are SO demanding and need LOTS of attention. But Braylee is doing very well. I think it helps that she is 3 though and not 18 months-2 years old like most age difference is with other parents.

Anyway! Thats week one!!

Week 1= AMAZING :)

Emergency Surgery After Delivery Story..

So we got released from the hospital on 9/25. I had a wedding to shoot that Friday on the 28th. Yes, you MIGHT think im crazy.. BUT i had Baiden 4 weeks early. I wasnt supposed to have a baby yet and i just could NOT bail. ESPECIALLY on a wedding! That is so so stressful to loose your photographer right before your wedding and have to find another one that you like, for the right price. ANYWAY.

So Friday comes, and literally, about an hour and a half before i need to leave.. BAM, most intense pain in the world come in my lower left pelvic region. I was DYING. It was so intense. It came in waves and kept getting more and more intense. I was bawling and couldnt even get up out of bed. I thought maybe my appendix burst but after googling it.. my appendix is not on my left side haha.

My husband Jeff was so concerned and got me heating pads etc. About 45 minutes before i had to leave, i finally i caved to my pain meds given to me from delivering Baiden. 30 minutes before i needed to leave i could finally get out of bed, and 20 minutes after that i was ready to go! THANK HEAVENS for my best friend Nikki who came to the wedding with me to help shoot and also drove me there sense im not supposed to drive with my pain meds. I felt fine but ya know, better safe then sorry. And thank HEAVENS for an amazing bride who was so understanding to my situation and me being 20 minutes late!

We shot the wedding, it was BEAUTIFUL! BEAUTIFUL couple, and i was completely pain free and had a great time shooting this amazing wedding.

The next morning (Saturday) i woke up and the pain was BACK, but on my right side this time. Jeff got the pain meds.. the pain went away for the entire day, didnt even think about it.

At about 7:30 that evening, the pain came back AGAIN and it was even worse then it had been. I called the on call O.B and he told me to go to the ER immediately because what i was experiencing was not normal. I kinda panicked. I didnt know what to do with my kids, and i ESPECIALLY didnt know what to do with my newborn who didnt sleep through the night and that i was trying to breast feed and was only a week old and had MAJOR separation anxiety over.

So i called my sister who lives like 5 minutes away, and she was fine taking the kids. I have amazing people in my life.

We got to the ER at about 8:30 or 9:00, and HOLY CRAP! It was PACKED. It was a full moon and EVERYONE in Utah decided to go the ER i guess. They were doing I.V's and Blood draws right there in the waiting area. Finally around 11:00pm i got my I.V, and at 11:30pm i got taken back for an ultrasound. During the ultrasound it was pretty obvious that the tech lady found something but she wasnt allowed to tell us.We went BACK to the waiting room, and around midnight, FINALLY  got taken back to be seen.

After the doc checked me and reviewed the ultrasound, it was decided that i had some placenta that didnt deliver after i had Baiden, and that i was going to need to be put under for an emergency D&C before it started to get infected. I was nervous to be put under but it had to be done.

If you dont know what a D&C is, basically they go up into your uterus, and scrape it all out. Lovely i know.

Anyway, the surgery went fast. I woke up, was moved to recovery, slept a little bit, went to go get the kids, and was home around 2:30am i think.

Doc said id INSTANTLY feel better and he was right. My recovery time was instant pretty much. Just had to take it easy and not lift over 19lbs for a few weeks.

And dont even worry! I definitely went and did another photo session that evening! Hahaha! Ill blame my craziness on my pain meds ;) But really, i felt fine, and again, wasnt bailing :) 

Day 2 &3 In Hospital!

This is more of a photo dump post haha!

So on Monday, the 24th, was day 2 in the hospital! Everything was continuing to go smooth! Baiden's sugar levels were low but i was trying to breast feed. So we had to start supplementing with formula. But where i was wanting to breast feed we had to feed him in a really complicated way. If you've done this before, you'll know what im talking about but basically i had to use a syringe that had a tube attached to it. I'd fill the syringe with formula, let Baiden latch on to the boob, and stick the tube in his mouth. So as he sucked the boobie, he was sucking down the formula too. It worked really well, but if he wouldn't latch good, we would just have to finger feed him. (Let him suck our finger with the tube.. etc etc).

 My sister Jessica. She was with me almost the entire time at the hospital :) The company was very nice. I sure do love her.

 Sister brought brother a toy doggy :)

 She is so sweet with him

 My other sister Becky. She is my sister that took care of Braylee while we were in the hospital. Yes, i have amazing sisters :)

 I love being a mommy of 2 kids!

Jeff's mom :)

 cute Rylee (Nikki's daughter) and Kyndsi (Nikki;s niece)

 Kage meets Baiden! Kage is Baiden's trainer in how to be a perfect baby :)

 Kage was soooo cute! He wanted to MAUL Baiden. True best friends already ;)

 Now THATS what i call a SANDWICH! I love hospital food :)

 Isnt he so precious??

 Bestie Ashley came to visit!

 :) good night little man

Please check out how swollen my foot/ankle got lol

Day 3!

Jeff's cute ;ittle air mattress. So much better then that chair bed they have.

My boys :) Melts my heart :)

 She seriously loves her brother so much

Due to Baiden's sugar levels being low.. there was a possibility that he would have to stay another day. I did NOT want to go home with out my baby! But we lucked out.. He was going to be released on the 3rd day (9/25) but not until the evening.

I on the other hand, was released in the morning by my O.B (Baiden has a separate doctor). But the hospital i stayed at was SOO sweet and even though i was released, let me stay in my room to be with Baiden. They brought me tons of formula sense i had Baiden early, was planning on breastfeeding anyway, and was totally unprepared for needing formula. I didnt even ask. SWEETEST nurses EVER!! They even sent me cards and all my nurses signed it :) OMG i cried..

Anyway, so the evening of the 25th, we were released from the hospital! September 25th is my dad's bday and my Niece Sam's bday. So we went straight to my moms to hang out for a minute and say happy birthday. There were SO many people, i was exhausted, and i just got anxious with the new baby, so we didnt stay long. And then we finally headed home!

Home life blog post will be coming soon :)