Jobless {Piss On Pepsi}

Ok, so my "week from hell" vlog got so long, i said i'd do a second vlog about the part of Jeff losing his job. So here it is!

I edited and re-editing this video ALL day yesterday. I tried to edit it down as much as possible, review it A LOT to make sure i did this video as tastefully as possible. I sat on it all day and made sure i was 100% to say what i said... you'll understand when you watch the video.
I took a lot out. We'll just say that haha.

So again, sorry its so long.. just listen to it while surfing facebook in another screen!

Christa vents are funny!

As disclaimed in this video, im not trying to make anyone look bad, BUT, it IS what it IS.
Also, Jeff worked for Admiral Beverage, not Pepsi national.
Here in Utah county, thats how that works.

Anyway, enjoy!
((if you dont care for the vent.. positive part and what our plan is now, is at 9:38))

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Emergency Surgery After Delivery Story..

So we got released from the hospital on 9/25. I had a wedding to shoot that Friday on the 28th. Yes, you MIGHT think im crazy.. BUT i had Baiden 4 weeks early. I wasnt supposed to have a baby yet and i just could NOT bail. ESPECIALLY on a wedding! That is so so stressful to loose your photographer right before your wedding and have to find another one that you like, for the right price. ANYWAY.

So Friday comes, and literally, about an hour and a half before i need to leave.. BAM, most intense pain in the world come in my lower left pelvic region. I was DYING. It was so intense. It came in waves and kept getting more and more intense. I was bawling and couldnt even get up out of bed. I thought maybe my appendix burst but after googling it.. my appendix is not on my left side haha.

My husband Jeff was so concerned and got me heating pads etc. About 45 minutes before i had to leave, i finally i caved to my pain meds given to me from delivering Baiden. 30 minutes before i needed to leave i could finally get out of bed, and 20 minutes after that i was ready to go! THANK HEAVENS for my best friend Nikki who came to the wedding with me to help shoot and also drove me there sense im not supposed to drive with my pain meds. I felt fine but ya know, better safe then sorry. And thank HEAVENS for an amazing bride who was so understanding to my situation and me being 20 minutes late!

We shot the wedding, it was BEAUTIFUL! BEAUTIFUL couple, and i was completely pain free and had a great time shooting this amazing wedding.

The next morning (Saturday) i woke up and the pain was BACK, but on my right side this time. Jeff got the pain meds.. the pain went away for the entire day, didnt even think about it.

At about 7:30 that evening, the pain came back AGAIN and it was even worse then it had been. I called the on call O.B and he told me to go to the ER immediately because what i was experiencing was not normal. I kinda panicked. I didnt know what to do with my kids, and i ESPECIALLY didnt know what to do with my newborn who didnt sleep through the night and that i was trying to breast feed and was only a week old and had MAJOR separation anxiety over.

So i called my sister who lives like 5 minutes away, and she was fine taking the kids. I have amazing people in my life.

We got to the ER at about 8:30 or 9:00, and HOLY CRAP! It was PACKED. It was a full moon and EVERYONE in Utah decided to go the ER i guess. They were doing I.V's and Blood draws right there in the waiting area. Finally around 11:00pm i got my I.V, and at 11:30pm i got taken back for an ultrasound. During the ultrasound it was pretty obvious that the tech lady found something but she wasnt allowed to tell us.We went BACK to the waiting room, and around midnight, FINALLY  got taken back to be seen.

After the doc checked me and reviewed the ultrasound, it was decided that i had some placenta that didnt deliver after i had Baiden, and that i was going to need to be put under for an emergency D&C before it started to get infected. I was nervous to be put under but it had to be done.

If you dont know what a D&C is, basically they go up into your uterus, and scrape it all out. Lovely i know.

Anyway, the surgery went fast. I woke up, was moved to recovery, slept a little bit, went to go get the kids, and was home around 2:30am i think.

Doc said id INSTANTLY feel better and he was right. My recovery time was instant pretty much. Just had to take it easy and not lift over 19lbs for a few weeks.

And dont even worry! I definitely went and did another photo session that evening! Hahaha! Ill blame my craziness on my pain meds ;) But really, i felt fine, and again, wasnt bailing :) 

Baiden's NICU Story...

So when Baiden was born, there was a respiratory team ready to check him and make sure he was breathing good. After they did all their little tests, they deemed him as good to go! Baiden was born at 11:47am, and through out the day was fine. We were enjoying our new bundle of joy and some visitors that came through out the day!

In the afternoon sometime, Baiden started making this cooing/whining sound. It was seriously the cutest thing! The nurse on shift came in and heart Baiden making this sound and wanted to take him to the nursery to check his oxygen. She did so, and brought him right back. His oxygen was fine. 

We continued through out the day loving on him and loving his cute little coo thing he was doing.

The next shift came on and the new nurse came in and heard what he was doing and said the same thing. She took him to the nursery, but this time he was gone for like an hour. The nurse kept coming back in to tell us they checked his oxygen, it was good, so now they are going to check this. About 2 hours went by, she came back in and said they were just waiting on same lab work they did on him.

An hour or so after that, at around 11:30pm ish, Jeff was asleep, and the nurse came in to inform me that Baiden was in the NICU and that his oxygen kept getting worse and worse so thats why he was in there. She then said we could go up to see him in about 15 minutes and get all the details of what was going on..

My heart fell out of my chest. I kid you not. Every scary thought went through my head. But i held it together so that i could calmly wake Jeff up and tell him what was going on. I woke him up, and as soon as i got the words "Baiden is in the NICU" out, i started balling. Jeff flew up out of his cute little air mattress so fast and was ready to head up to the NICU.

When we got there there was a whole team of people right by Baiden's side monitoring him and decided how they needed to help his breathing out.

 It was so hard to see him this way. Add in all my post pregnancy crazy emotions... it was hard for me to hold it together (and i didnt). They had to start an I.V on him.. that was super hard to watch. Especially where it took a couple tried to get it in. They kept poking and prodding and hooking things up to him and all i wanted to do was hold him and take all his pain away... Then... it got worse...

 They decided he needed a C-Pap machine to help him breathe. Its a machine that simple adds an extra puff of air into his lungs to prevent his lungs from collapsing  But it LOOKS intense and was so hard to see my tiny son that way...

I basically hadnt slept sense Thursday (this was Sunday night/Monday morning) and the nurses kept reasurring me that he was in good hands and that we were welcome to stay as long as we wanted but encouraged me to get some sleep... so i agreed to do so at about 12:30am.

Around 4:00am, a nurse came in to wake me up, and she had my sweet baby boy. He was off the machine and out of the NICU and doing awesome. All he needed was about 4 hours on the machine.

I cant even describe to you that moment and getting my baby back into my arms to hold him and love on him.

Words can not even express my appreciation to the team of people who made sure my son was well taken care of and on the road to recovery. The hospital i stayed at is truly the best!

Thought I Lost My Baby....

So here is the post ive been meaning to post about our scary weekend!

So on Sunday, June 24th, i had a really chill day (after a stressful busy weekend). I did a bridal shoot in the evening which went perfect! Then i came home and relaxed with my husband and watched a movie! He had the following day off work so it was really nice. Just an all around great day.

(WARNING.. GRAPHIC CONTENT)

Later that night, marital activies were happening (sorry i have to explain that part). I stood up, it was dark, and something didnt feel right. I felt REALLY wet, like something was running down my legs. I told Jeff to turn on the light to make sure it wasnt blood... when the lights came on, it was like a murder scene. Blood was running out of me and my hand was POOLED with blood. I started shaking and i think the first thing that came out of my mouth was "Noooooo". I went to the toilet and blood was literally STREAMING out of me. Not kinda drizzling... STREAMING. Jeff called 911. I was shaking and bawling hysterically and all i could say was "No". I was so certain that i was loosing my son. I think from there i went into shock. Its all kind of a daze. Jeff was on the phone with 911 for a good 2 minutes and that entire time blood was streaming out of me. 

Then dispatch had jeff lay me on the floor. I think that's when the bleeding stopped. I didnt know what was going on but i guess Jeff was instructed to look for a head (like maybe i was delivering). How scary that moment had to have been for Jeff im not sure, but i can only imagine.

The ambulance came, i was started on an I.V. I could hardly walk i was so dizzy and out of it. Jeff took Braylee to my sister who lives 5 minutes away, and when i got to the hospital, Jeff was already there and ran to my side. I dont know what i would have done with out him!

 When we got to labor and delivery, so many things were running through my head.

Was i about to meet my lifeless son? Was i going to have to deliver my baby only to say good bye to him? Was there any glimmer of hope that if i had to deliver him that he would be able to survive?

But then the unexpected happened..

They hooked me up to the little monitor machine... and instantly... found a strong, healthy heartbeat.

I really wasnt expecting that.

I kept doubting what was happening, expecting things to turn for the worse. But the more time that went by and baby was perfect, the more i relaxed and got this overwhelming feeling that everything was going to be ok. It also helped to have my amazing husband keeping me positive and holding my hand :)

 We stayed in the hospital all night while they monitored Baiden and did some blood work on me to try to figure out what happened. In the morning we were told me needed an ultrasound before we could get any decisions of what happened and why. We had to wait for an opening and pretty much waited all day.

One POSSIBILITY of my bleeding was that im RH- and Jeff is RH+. Basically when the mom's blood type is negative and the father's is positive, if the baby has positive blood type, the mom's body will see the baby as a disease or sickness and will try to fight it off. Not always, but it can. 

Thats why ive had miscarriages in the past. BUT they have a shot called Rhogam, so if you start bleeding, you get a Rhogam shot and your body should stop fighting off baby. So while waiting for the ultrasound, i got my Rhogam shot. 

 Braylee came to visit :)

 We finally got in for the ultrasound and it went amazing. 

The specialist was impressed at how great Baiden was growing and perfectly developing.

They mostly were wanting to check my placenta and cervix to see if there was any obvious signs of why i was bleeding like placenta previa (placenta covers the cervix, which is not good) , or a placental abruption (placenta pulls away from the uterin wall.. very bad). BUT my placenta was very healthy and close to my cervix but not covering it at all! Then they checked to make sure my cervix wasnt dialated etc and that too was great!

To be on the safe side, the specialist ordered some steriod shots IN CASE this happened again. Also any time with heavy bleeding, it puts you at risk for pre-term labor. Although my cervix looked great and didnt show any signs to point to preterm labor, she just wanted to be safe.

 Even though everything was looking good, my doctor wanted me to stay another night at the hospital due to the amount of blood i had lost. Just to be cautious and monitor baby and all that jazz.

So Jeff went and got Braylee and things we'd need, we ate hobo dinners at the hospital (yes i know, we are awesome) and had a sleepover! Braylee did so good.

 Later that night (yes the time on the clock is correct..11:30om haha) 2 of my amazing friends came to bring me cookies, flowers, and many laughs! They seriously know how to brighten my day! It meant so so much to me that they came to support, show love, and comfort me with SUCH a scary incident! Love you Nikki and Felicia!

 In the morning i got a little worried when i started having little contractions (blue line) and baby's heart started to take some dips (red line). His normal heart rate is 145 ish and it kept dipping to like 89 ish. But the nurses kept assuring me it was ok and normal for a 23 weeks baby who is still small and moves around a lot. 

Out of all the many possibilities of why i might have bled, the only one that kinda made the most sense of why i bled was the sex. The cervix is very vascular. BUT the amount of blood just didnt add up. But thats what the docs went with haha. 

We were released a 12:40pm on Tuesday and BOY was i glad to be out of there!

(i love finding notes on my car from my friends :)

My release terms was a few days of bedrest.. followed by 2 weeks of NO exercise, no sex, nothing that raises my heart rate too much. I cant be in the heat for too long, and the list goes on. I cant even have a full bladder lol. Then in 2 weeks i have a doc appt and we will re-evaluate.

We had to go BACK to the hospital at 5pm for my last steroid shot and all i can say is that BEST be the last time i have to go to the hospital till OCTOBER! 

You hear that Baiden?? OCTOBER! :)

October 1st i will be 37 weeks.. thats the soonest that ill be ok to deliver him :)

Mommy and Daddy love you so much my beautiful, strong, amazing son!

Yes we are anxious to meet you, but seriously, we CAN and WILL wait till October :)