As i mention alot, i babysit my niece monday-friday (but now only Mon, Wed, Friday) and Makaibree, the little neighbor girl, tuesday-thursday. And then i work Monday and Friday and sometimes Saturday.
Im not gonna lie sometimes i feel pretty worthless only working 2 days a week or that people view me as lazy. I often get comments about how many pictures i take/put on facebook and what i get alot is "you have too much time on your hands" or "you need a hobby". It makes me feel so worthless. but when i realize what i do and how i help others it makes me feel better. i dont get paid to babysit nor do i want to but it really feels like a second job.
But during the day i find myself on facebook alot or blogging etc and thats when i feel worthless and lazy.. but its what i do to keep busy and occupied while all the babies play. Granted i am busy with feeding babies, diaper changes, napping, getting dressed, more diaper changes, more feeding, and more diaper changes i still seem to feel lazy.
I rarely get ready cuz all the bedrooms are upstairs and one of the babies is always napping (i try to nap them opposite) and if i go upstairs the other kid will wake up the one sleeping. I only shower and workout at night after 8pm when Jeff and Bray are in bed. Thats the only time i get to myself.
So why do i feel worthless and lazy??
I barely get time to myself.
Maybe its cuz its hard to keep the house clean so its always messy and the fact i dont get ready that i feel lazy??
Anyway.....................................
dont ask me why but i really enjoy taking pics of the babies playing.
Makaibree
Braylee and my niece Kallee
tea time
NAP TIME FOR KAIBREE! haha
Braylee likes to join whoever is on time out
i find it adorable
Kallee doing Bray's hair
the photographer
I am so thankful for my husband and all his hard work for me to be able to only work 2 days a week and be home with my daughter. He is an amazing man and is so understanding. He comes home from a long day to his stressed out wife and listens to her vent about feeling worthless and makes me feel a million times better. He will take over dinner to let me take a bubble bath on the days i need it. i just love him.
And i love taking pictures, it is my hobby. so shut it. :)
5 comments :
I hate that people tell you that. It's really non of there business. Hence the reason why i'm taking a break from Facebook. You obviously help out a lot with others and you are a great person. Don't feel worthless and lazy cause your not. Blogging is a hobby which everyone has a hobby! When people make fun of me I just laugh it off now because really they have no idea.
I love you and your pictures so just snapp away. All these people are going to look back and wish they had pictures of their children when they don't. So you are doing a good thing!
Amen to Shawntae's words of wisdommm!!!
I think you freakin rock, and I know EXACTLY where you're coming from. I don't work, I study so I'm usually coming and going and just a lot of fun time with Maia which urks people off and then they make jealous comments...let them be. :}
thanks guys :) i got all teary eye knowing i have such great supportive friends who are so sweet and go out of their way to make me feel better :) i really do enjoy helping others and their adorable babies, and it helps me feel like im accomplishing SOMETHING besides being an almost stay at home mom lol. So i hope no one takes this as me complaining about the babysitting cuz im not im just explaining how i stay busy :) you guys are the best i really appreciate your kind words :)
Wow - you do babysit a lot! They are lucky to have you. It is hard to stay at home all the time - cooking and cleaning get old after a while too. I'm all about field trips! Not every day but just something to break my day up - even if it's just a ride to walmart to run around or going to feed the ducks. In a way you are lucky you have those other kids for Bray to play with - Landan always wants me to play with him because there is no one else! Yesterday he told me I was his best friend:)
On a side note - Bray's hair is getting long!
haha awww thats cute!! bring him over to play yo! haha i wish we lived closer! ya the winter just sucks cuz there really isnt anything to get out and do. Thanks for the advice we'll have to work on getting out more
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