Depression || Truth & Help

Sharing my life struggles and tips to help others going through similar stuff.

Depression is BAD now a days. SO many are effected.

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Motivation Mondays!! {IS BAAACK!!}

Are you so excited??
I AM!!



Im 17 pounds down from pregnancy.
2 more till im back to pre-pregnancy weight..

Need to loose 20 lbs to be in my healthy weight range for my height!!

Check back here every Monday to see how im doing and to get a little motivation if you need some!

The Dark Side Of Pregnancy...

So i've posted before about pregnancy and finding the positives in it no matter what... [You can find that post HERE <-----]

But pregnancy DEFINITELY has its dark side....

Everyone knows the last month of pregnancy is the hardest and most miserable.

I already have carried super low this pregnancy, which has caused my hip pain and such, but it wasnt too bad. Now that Baiden has dropped, im in almost CONSTANT pain..

Walking is painful due to my sciatic nerve and now back pain. There is so much pressure on my cervix that i get sharp pains, which cause contractions, its just miserable.

If i sit for longer than 20 minutes my hips start to hurt and i have to change position or adjust. If i lay down, i cant lay on my back so i have to pick a side, and being on one side too long makes my hips hurt bad so i have to rotate (which is a painful process). So BASICALLY, walking, sitting, and laying down, offers little relief.

 Getting up is quite the hard process (and probably amusing from an outside view). Its difficult to get out of bed. I cant sit on the floor for more than 30 second without TREMENDOUS pain when i move.

I can barely shower myself. Shaving is pretty much non existent (sorry husband!). I cant paint my toes or clip them. TRYING to do so just gives me contractions cuz squishing Baiden in the least bit puts so much pressure on my cervix that i contract

It hurts to put on pants/shorts like a normal person. I feel like im pulling a muscle ever time i try to lift my leg to slip it into a pants leg.Standing too long makes my chest hurt and feel heavy (dont freaking ask.. i dont know). I run out of breath just TALKING too much.Im always getting random charlie horses that HURT. Add that to the sciatic nerve pain.. SHOOT ME NOW!

I already had to pee about ever hour and a half to 2 hours.. now that Baiden has dropped, i feel like i have to pee every 30 minutes or EVERY time i stand up. Even just sitting or laying i will get sudden SHARP pains in my cervix. I can feel him pushing on it like he is trying to bust out and it is SO uncomfortable.

Baiden is so big that his movements have started to kinda hurt? Like he loves to stretch out or run his boney elbows or knees or SOMETHING along my belly and it HURST. There is more baby than fluid now so his movements are just sore now.

My boobs hurt, i have bad allergies (you cant take good meds during pregnancy), i get heartburn by just SMELLING something spicey. I have to eat like a toddler. I randomly get nauseous. I cant brush my teeth without the sink looking like a murder scene (pregnancy gingivitis). The love life is interesting to say the least with a belly this huge and a kid so low. My belly itches now. The constant cramping and tightening is so irritating and sometimes painful. OH the list goes ON and ON!

Did you catch all that?

Alright lets continue...

Do you know what its like to be in CONSTANT discomfort? It REALLY takes its toll on the emotions. And i think this is why ive hit my breaking point emotionally. I've been on the more emotional side this whole pregnancy. But nothing bad at all. Now im SO sensitive. I randomly start crying. I have a break down about once a week now. I catch myself being paranoid, like "What if Jeff is miserable dealing with me and all my neediness". "What if my own daughter starts to not like me cuz im ornery all the time?"

Just ridiculous things...

I know this is all normal.. but its just hard excepting that you've lost control of your body and mind.

Im so lucky to have an AMAZING husband and support system (friends/family) who are understanding to it all. Let me vent, dont judge me, are there for me through it all etc. And honestly, i think im handling it all pretty well. Ive had a PERFECT pregnancy up until this point so i REALLY lucked out.

I figured i just better document the not so fun stuff cuz as we ALL know... i keep it real on this blog, blog about it all, and dont hold back. For others to relate to, not feel alone, and for me to look back on and remember why we are having NO MORE BABIES ;)

 Cheers to the next 3 weeks and 3 days! 

The countdown is ON! 

WE CAN DO THIS!!

:)

Ps..

Photos are of, taken by, and edited by me :)

Go to http://chrissyannphotography.blogspot.com to see more of my work .

This Is Me...

"You are who you are and that's all you can be... look at the world and say this is me, take me as I am or watch me as I go"

One of my BIGGEST flaws/personal problems.. is that i care too much.

Im CONSTANTLY putting others before myself. Im a people pleaser. I like to make others feel happy. I truly love and revolve my life around helping others.

Now you might be wondering... "How is that a flaw and a personal problem"?

Its a problem because im essentially neglecting myself. Im not protecting my OWN feelings and emotions. Im more worried about the other person and not hurting THEM, that i end up hurting MYSELF.

Ive always considered this a good quality about myself... until recently as im realizing its becoming a problem. People are starting to take advantage of this with me and walking all over me.

I think others become so accustomed to me being a push over and nice... that when i do make a stand for myself or realize im pushing myself too hard and want to slow down a little... its unpleasing to the person and they get mad at me. Like ive "changed" and im being "rude", when really all ive done is realized its not worth hurting myself or over working myself to please THEM.

Like with my photography business (or any business for that matter). You need to know your own worth and dont settle for less otherwise you're going to get walked on and your business isnt going to go anywhere.
(just a little scenario)

Everyone knows the last month of pregnancy is the hardest and most miserable.

Now that Baiden has dropped im in CONSTANT pain. Which i think all the physical pain is whats taking its toll on my emotions. (i will do a separate post about the pregnancy pain either tomorrow or in my Wednesday pregnancy post).

[So here i am at my breaking point emotionally]

Im just TIRED of being made out to be something im not. Im TIRED of being taken advantage of. Im DONE being a door mat. I know that i really have myself to blame for being treated this way. Ive allowed it for so long that thats all others know with me. But do NOT make me feel like a bad person just for protecting myself and caring for my OWN emotions for ONCE in my life.

Do NOT try to break me down and and make me out to be something im not..

Ive had a HUGE wake up call in the last few months as far as picking the people you surround yourself with wisely. Ive surrounded myself with good people who surround THEMSELVES with good people. I now am CONSTANTLY told how amazing i am. I am actually APPRECIATED and shown how much i am appreciated. Even by people who dont even really know me. 

I recently shot a wedding (my best friend Nikki Hatch's wedding), and the next day Nikki called me and left me a message. She said "i just wanted to tell you.. SOOO many people came up to me at the wedding and singled you out and said "you know that Christa girl, she is SO sweet and so amazing. She is such a sweet heart and so patient". That hit me SO hard (i cant even hold back the tears as i type). It hit me so hard cuz i've been going through a rough time with some people that WERE really close to me, trying to make me feel so ugly. Like im this HORRIBLE person when im not. 

And FINALLY!!..... FINALLY.... i have found friends who treat me just as amazing as i treat them. FINALLY i have good people who would give their shirt off their back for me, as i would do for them. FINALLY people who make me feel just as good as i try to make others feel. FINALLY!!

THIS IS ME!!

I KNOW my self worth. I KNOW who i am.

And i dont need to people who try to tarnish that beauty.

(Motivation Mondays} Week 11, WEIGHT Disclosure

I asked you guys last week to guess my weight..

The average was 150 ish

Jean size 7-9

NOW I WILL TELL YOU!

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Shrinking and Toning.

11 weeks.

13 pounds down (1-2 pounds per week is healthy)

2 inches in waist

3 inches in belly

Take that haters!

My diet is fine.
Thanks hunnie :)
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Could ya?

Click on the ^^^ then click the LEFT bubble.
THATS IT!

Thanks for all the support guys :)

Motivation Mondays! {GUESS MY WEIGHT!}

Today we are going to play a game :)

I have never disclosed my weight or measurements because i was going to have everyone guess!

Ill tell you why next week where i will also disclose my weight and jean size!

So watch the vid and ill give you info to help you guess

as well as my regular body check in.

Body still shots..
Last weeks pic

So comment on this post with your guesses!
(or email, fb, twitter, text, whatever works)
Feel free to comment anonymously if you are worried you might hurt my feelings.
Which you WONT.
Im not sensitive about my weight.
i wouldnt be doing this if i was.

Reminder:
Im 5'7, down 13 pounds, 2 inch in waist, and 3 inch in belly.

I will disclose my weight and such in next week's vid!!

A Trick For Voluminous Hair! {V.V}

VLOGGING VEDNESDAYS!

Ever wednesday i give you a theme, you can follow it or not, but then you make a vlog, 

come link up here!

This week's theme was to teach us something!

I am teaching you a trick to add volume to your hair!
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Could ya?

Motivation Mondays! {Shirt vs NO Shirt}

First off... here is my watch me shrink video

You should probably watch the whole video so you know why
im going to be talking about shirts vs no shirts

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OK.
So dont even worry, im not phased by the negative comments but regardless, i like to address them haha.

So yes, in my videos, i wear minimal clothing..
BUT ITS WATCH ME SHRINK VIDEOS!
You cant show toning through shirts and shorts..
Im CHUBBY, i have STRETCH MARKS, i have LOOSE SKIN everywhere...
NOT PRETTY!!
So why the am i viewed as UNclassy or slutty?
These videos arent sexual.... they are nasty haha..
These vids are to motivate MYSELF and OTHERS....
Get over it haters haha....

Anyway..... ill prove my point.
SHIRT vs NO shirt lol

Do you see how well even a white shirt hides the toning and shape (or lack there of lol)

(Yes my right side has more saggy skin...)

World of differance.. and if im toning.. how are you going to see that through a shirt??

Thats it with the comparisons..
Now just some normal week 9 body shots

I mentioned in my video what im doing to loose weight and my diet.
So make sure you watch that.

Total weight loss in 9 weeks: -13 pounds (with a 3 week plateau)
Waist: -2 inches
Belly: -3 inches
Lower belly/Skin sag area: 2 inches

MOTIVATION MONDAYS!!! {INSANITY &Week 5 Shrinkage}

My "Get fit" Saturdays are now Motivation Mondays!!

It getting too time consuming to make the vid, edit the vid, and post the vid all on saturday so yea!

This the end of week 2 dong INSANITY (round 2)

and end of week 5 all together!

I am 10 pounds down, 1 inch in waist, 2 inches in midsection, and i dont care about the rest.

Watch the vid for the body updates and my plateau this week.

As promised,

Today i am talking about INSANITY!

Ive done p90x, turbofire, pilates, Jillian Micheals, turbo jam, TaeBo, flirty girl fitness, carmen electra, slim in six, Denise Austin, YOU NAME IT...
And insanity is BY FAR my FAVORITE!!

You guys HAVE to try it!
Its AMAZING!
The first 10 min will leave you DRIPPING sweat.
AND THATS JUST THE WARM UP!

You dont use any weight or resistance bands.
Its all your own body weight which creates major TONING.
Its like running, with squats and push ups, sit ups, suicide drills and plyometric training all in one!

I PROMISE you, it will get the fastest, BEST results!

And ALWAYS REMEMBER......

How I Lost 5 pounds in 2 weeks VLOG!

We are BAAAACK from our week long vacation!

I am sad but at the same time happy to be back in my own home and own bed with REGULAR food haha.

So make sure to be checking my blog for the next week or so for all my post, MILLIONS of amazing pictures and videos!

In the mean time... enjoy my fitness vlog that was SUPPOSED to go with my post last saturday 

where i yell at you all :)

And also, i will be doing another fitness update/motivation post this saturday! 

yay!!

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And seriously....
check out them biceps at the end of the vid.
BOOOOYA!

MAN i have A LOT of blogging catching up to do from all the lovely blogs i follow.

So be ready for me to stalk you ;)

Oh and make sure you subscribe to my youtube channel!
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I HAVE BIG NEWS!!!!

Are you ready for it??

Are you sure!?

K well here it comes!!

So i hope this news isnt a disappointment to those of you who are thinking this is a "IM PREGNANT!" post cuz its not. Its even better! Haha ok so myabe not BETTER but, with this big news we can consider baby news. Anywho.. k here it is.

For the first time in 9 FREAKING MONTHS............

MY THYROID LEVEL IS NORMAL!!

HALLE-freaking-LUJAH !

Im trying not to get my hopes up cuz i have an auto immune thyroid disorder so basically my body can decide to destroy my thyroid some more at any time. BOO.

I guess HERE is where i will start my weight loss journey.

I know ive already come a long way sense ive had Braylee but im still 30 pounds over weight and that is NOT ok. I dont feel like myself and i will not settle for less.

I just want to be healthy.

not skinny. HEALTHY!

and comfortable in my own skin!

But along the baby note.

Braylee is almost 2 1/2 years old. So age spacing wise, we are in the clear for me to get pregnant. But i always said i want my thyroid under control before i get pregnant. And now it is... so i guess we are in the clear there too.....

BUT. I dont feel ready yet. I want my thyroid to be under control for a few months.

Im scared of loosing another baby. 

My Endocrinologist said that by getting pregnant my thyroid will go out of control again and ill need to go in like every 2 weeks to get my levels monitored but if my thyroid is too high or too low, my baby will have disabilities.

So all im hearing is that i will probably miscarry and i will probably have a disabled baby.

Um....

We MIGHT be done having kids. 

Regardless. Im just not ready yet. 

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Having all that being said... lets talk about WORKING OUT!!

Lately ive been doing TurboFire and i LOVE it!

I cant decide if INSANITY was more intense or not but Chalene Johnson is definitely more fun!

Girls: If you still look CUTE after working out... YOU DIDNT WORK HARD ENOUGH!

I recently just got a gym pass and my focus at the gym is to build muscle. Ill continue my turbofire at home but focus on weights at the gym at least 3 times a week.

When girls are trying to loose weight they think CARDIO CARDIO CARDIO. But this is SOOO wrong!

Building muscle is probably THE BEST thing you can do for your body.

Because the more muscle you have, the more cals you burn when you are doing nothing like sleeping, and sitting on the couch. And who wouldnt want to be buring calories 24/7?!
You still need cardio of course but DONT NEGLECT YOUR MUSCLES! 

DONT BE AFRAID OF MUSCLE!

If your worried about getting "bulky" just use lower weights with higher reps! Simple.

Of course dieting is in there somewhere..

But i think diets are so stupid..

Im not saying eat but im saying you need to make a LIFESTYLE change.

"Diets" should be continued through out your life time but im talking about eating lots of food. Lots of natural food. Clean eating for say. Pack yourself full of veggies and fruits and LIMIT your carbs, not DEPRIVE.

Sugar is NOT that terrible. Get over it. Of course candy is bad, and other things like that but if your sprinkling a little sugar on your cheerios... ITS O-KAY!

REWARD yourself!

Diets are so freaking depressing...

Eat normal. and healthy.

and WORK OUT!!!!

Working out is SOO good for you.

Good for your heart, your EMOTIONS. It relieves stress and raises endorphin's making you HAPPY!

SO WORK OUT!!!!

Dont sit around "dieting" being lazy.

Amen.

Get Naked....

My daughter is such a hoot.


She has always loved to be nakey. She will get herself naked anywhere, even in public. I LOVE to put dresses on her but those are usually the outfits that come off easiest.


And it got me thinking. Sometimes i wish i could be like my daughter. Like a child. To not have a care in the world. She doesnt care if her thighs jiggle when she runs. She doesnt care if the girl living next door has prettier hair or more money. Of course alot of that is because she is 2 and isnt aware of all these things yet but you get my point. Braylee is fine to fun around naked and not care who see's. Now im not saying us adults need to start running around naked but more like the symbolism of it. Why is it SO hard for us to just be ourselves and not have a care in the world of what others think of us? Where did we go wrong? At what age do we start putting ourselves down and looking at what everyone else has and comparing ourselves? Where did it start?



I desperately want to figure it out and keep that from happening with my daughter. I know that with anything else in life, all we can do is teach our children wrong from right and teach them certain aspects in life and then all we can do after that point is hope for the best. Hope that all our nagging and disciplining and talking their ears off will have some effect of them.

But i think the greatest way to get through to our children is by being an example. How can we teach them one thing and do the complete opposite?

I came across a post by Casey Wiegand about scars. You can find it {{ hErE }}. And it really hit me. Now i dont have a C-section scar but my stomach is COVERED, from under my boobs all the way to my mid thighs, with huge, deep, dark, stretch marks. I even have them on top of my shoulders, in my arm pits, and even on my jaw bone. How that happened i do not know. Of course i know they aren't pretty, but i have learned to embrace them. I really dont care. I look at them as pregnancy battle wounds (i had a HORRIBLE pregnancy) that were all worth it so that i could bring my pride and joy into this world. I still wear tank tops even though i have stretch marks on my shoulders. I still wear short shorts even though i have stretch marks on my thighs. Now i dont wear bikinis but if i had the body, bet your toosh i would.

Why should i have to hide? Why should i have to worry about what my body looks like for other people. I accept them and i could care less if you accept them or not. I didnt always accept my pregnancy scars. But after a while i got tired of hiding. I got tired of not being able to wear half my clothes due to a stretch mark showing.

Im not perfect. Im far from it. But i am trying to train myself to love me for who i am. Even if i really dont love certain things about myself, i want to pretend i do so that i can be that example for my baby girl. And maybe after a while of pretending.. I really will :)

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Love to Hate Myself...

Why do girls love to hate themselves??

I mean seriously. We focus more on the negative than the positive. Its hard to not look in the mirror and see something we dont like. How often do you just stand in front of the mirror being sad. Whether your staring at your nose that you hate, or your eyes that are too far apart or too close. Your boobs that are too small. That fat roll that just wont go away. Those thunder thighs. That cellulite. The droopy "mom bum", or whatever your flaw/flaws might be. I am AMAZED at some of the crazy things girls can come up with.

TIME FOR THE DOWNER PART OF THIS POST

I guess i am blogging about this because i have been having a really hard time with this the last few weeks. Its frustrating when your working so hard to get fit and not be getting ANYWHERE due to your thyroid. Ya know and its not just that i "want to be skinny". I dont want to be skinny. I want to be healthy.

2 years now and ive tried EVERYTHING. I explain this in my weight loss tab under my header but after high school and getting married, i gained 20 pounds. Got pregnant, had high blood pressure, gained another 60 pounds. THATS 80 POUNDS PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!! I lost 30 right off the bat from water weight. I did the HCG diet a year ago, and lost another 20. Well here i am, a year later, still 30 pounds over weight. I havent' lost anything sense then. Ive dont Jillian Micheals 30 day shred, do her yoga and no more trouble zone workouts. Did alot of cycling. Did the clean eating for a while. Did Chalene Johnsons turbo jam workouts. Did the entire INSANITY 60 day workouts. I watch what i eat and eat healthy. And NOTHING is working. Do you know how frustrating and depressing that is??

Ive struggled with eating disorders in high school but i REFUSE to go to that level. IM BETTER THAN THAT. IM STRONGER THAN THAT. And i think thats what's so frustrating. Im NOT giving up. Im not being lazy. Im not taking the "easy" route. (not that starving yourself is easy). Im staying strong and working my A** OFF!

Im just finally at the point where i cant fight off the depression. I cant hold myself high anymore. Im slowly giving up. Im counting down the days to my next endocrinologist appt. One more week. I literally want to crawl up in a ball and just wait for wednesday to get here.

I just hate feeling like this. Normally i am so positive. I like to set the example. Set the bar high. Be someone that people can look up to. Be an inspiration for. And i feel like im slowly loosing that. And i hate it.

Lets get back to happy town!

Sorry about all the negative talk. Like i said im just at that breaking point. So girls, this coming week, lets set a goal. We are going to look at all the POSITIVES about ourselves. We need to set the bar high and be examples. ESPECIALLY if we have kids, even more important, daughters. We need to break the cycle and teach girls to appreciate ourselves and KNOW that we are BEAUTIFUL.

I need some positive vibes. So here is the plan, lets start this week by making a post of EVERYTHING we love about ourselves. And i want to read them. So im gonna do a link up and im going to read each and every one. Ive never done a linky before so lets hope it works lol. Let me know if it isnt working

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i AM beautiful...

Im taking a little pause in my Easter posts :)

go link up :)

Sometimes it sucks being a girl. There is so much pressure from your peers, media, magazines, tv, etc. We get so bogged down with trying to have our hair perfect, our makeup perfect, the perfect clothes, the perfect body, that we beat ourselves up more than lift ourselves up.

We get ready for the day, might be feeling good, but then go somewhere and see what other girls are wearing and think, wow i feel like an idot now compared to how cute she look.

We spend so much time wishing we had her nose, or this other girls eye brows, or her eyes, her legs, her butt. But we hardly ever say "i love my nose, i love my lips" etc.

Im not perfect by all means. I have MANY flaws. But life isnt about stressing about the flaws. We all have them. One of my major issues with myself is my body after pregnancy. But that i can change. So i work my butt off because there is nothing wrong with wanting to be fit and healthy. But sitting around complaining wont get me anywhere. I have never just sat and complained.

But some things we CANT change (without plastic surgery). And we need to learn to just love our flaws. Life is too short to live it being unhappy. Who cares if your nose isnt straight. Who cares if i have a huge black man bottom lip. People will always try to break you down, especially girls, and the one thing they know that will get to a girl is to point out a flaw and make fun. Dont let them break you. Embrace your beauty. I HONESLTY dont think it is possible for someone to not be beautiful. Everyone has their tastes, beauty is in the eye of the beholder.

So realize you ARE beautiful and flaunt it!

Sometimes as mom's i think we forget about ourselves. We forget we should not only love and care for our children but also love and care for ourselves.

Take the time to get ready in the morning. Do your hair, put makeup on. Even if there is no reason to, it only makes you feel better about yourself. Do your nails, take bubble baths, exercises regularly, eat healthy.

If you neglect yourself you are essentially neglecting your family cuz you will get depressed if you are always a bum and your family deserves being around a happy mommy.

Do your best at keeping the house tidy. I realize kids favorite thing to do is make messes but if you add all these things together you can only imagine what your inner self feels like when your house is always a mess, your hair is a mess, you look like something that just crawled out of a gutter, your wearing the same clothes as yesterday, and your slowly gaining weight. Your slowly deteriorating and "letting yourself go" which will effect your relationship and family life. So even if it seems like such a pain to get ready... DO IT!


Now,  i guess i have some resolutions.

• Be a better wife and mom
• Get better at making meals/try new recipes
• Continue my workout routine and never give up or get lazy
• Have another baby and PRAY i have a normal pregnancy with no preeclampsia
• Try my hardest to not get down on myself and accept my "new mommy body". and i dont mean accept being fat cuz its important to stay fit. I mean accept all the things i cant change.
• Get better at photography
• Be more crafty

This post is so random..you got a little advice section, a little resolutions section, and now a little about me section :)......

Im 21, a Gemini and it totally fits me.

Im super shy, and super not.

im REALLY nice... BUT....i have the capabilities to be not so nice :) but that is rare.

i can be really quiet, and i can be really loud

really outgoing..and sometimes really closed off

i LOVE pink

im pretty dang girly

but then again im not

i LOVE motocross/dirt bikes

i love taking pictures

i take alot of myself too but it isnt in a "dang girl your so hot" type of way its more of a "hey i like the lighting right now or i wonder if this lighting will look cool" type of way lol

im very chill

hate drama

im WAY too forgiving

i dont hold grudges

i DO NOT judge

im very caring and put others before myself

i let people take advantage of me

i pretend to be stronger than i really am

i write poetry

i sing

i dance

i scrapbook occasionally but dont have the funds to get all into it

im addicted to facebook

im an entertainer

i have a good sense of humor

im OBSESSED with Victoria's Secret (especially their PINK line)

i love sweat pants and hoodies

i love the outdoors

im scared of the dark

im scared of being alone

i have trust issues with others, but im the most tryst WORTHY person you'll ever meet

and ill stop here cuz im sick of typing lol

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