Friday, November 9, 2018

Botox Round 2 || Non Graphic

Update on my botox. I HATED my botox the first time once it set in. So this time we did things a little different :) ------------------------------------- Website: http://www.jamesclaytonmd.com My Email: Chrissyann336@yahoo.com -------------------------------------- Surgery Stuff **Here is a link to my Fb Closed Group!** You must be FEMALE, had or having plastic surgery, then MESSAGE ME on fb to join! Mommy Makeover/ Cosmetic Surgery Group: https://www.facebook.com/groups/95255...


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Health Struggle Update || Thyroid, Weight Gain, CT Scan

Here is the update on the last 6 months of all my health struggles!
ITS BEEN A DOOZY! 

{I update the most efficiently on Instagram. @ChristaCox3}
----------------------- Surgery Stuff **Here is a link to my Fb Closed Group!** You must be FEMALE, had or having plastic surgery, then MESSAGE ME on fb to join! Mommy Makeover/ Cosmetic Surgery Group: https://www.facebook.com/groups/95255...



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Revlon Photo Ready Insta Filter Foundation || PRODUCT REVIEW

Review on the Revlon Photo Ready Insta Filer Foundation!

Brushes: Morphe: https://www.morphebrushes.com If you're in Utah, here is a link to my amazing Lash girl! https://www.facebook.com/kourtnieward...



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Friday, November 2, 2018

The Light After Darkness

Ive gone through some "Trauma" the last 6-8 months.
Lots of emotional triggers that have plummeted me into a DEEP depression.
A depression that I named "Shadow Man"
[ Find post here ].

With one particular situation, I felt like I couldnt "speak up" or "speak out" as to not upset the other person who did the damage.
So I turned inward.
I shut down.
self destruct if you will.

I deactivated my twitter, then personal instagram, then my fitness one.
Stopped going to the gym.
Stopped eating healthy (if I ate at all).
Stopped reaching out to friends.
Didn't leave the house.
I wanted to avoid life.
avoid everything.

I held everything inside.
SO many thoughts up in my head with no where to go.
So the anxiety and depression got worse.
Soon that all became very toxic.
I MYSLEF... became toxic.

Id isolate myself, not talk.
When I did talk, the toxicity just spilled out.
So id avoid talking some more.
and inadvertently.. I push everyone close to me away.
my husband being the one who got the brunt of it.
It wasn't fair to him... its not fair to anyone.
Including myself.

But eventually, i i found myself talking.
Id just talk, and what was hurting me would pop up.
And when I talked about what was hurting me, it would feel... Good.
Like I was releasing the hurt.

So I started talking more about it.
And soon... I felt the "Shadow Man" grip around me loosening up.

Now... i started therapy.
which ive never done before.
Therapy helped SO much in explaining emotional trauma, and "triggers".
Why things happening in the present day, can trigger us back to a past subconscious trauma, and thats why we find ourself acting out of the norm.
So my therapist's method... is basically getting to the root of those emotional traumas (usually happen in childhood or early adulthood etc), and working on healing them through a method that is kind of like REM sleep (Rapid Eye Movement).
Its not hypnosis. But its a way to get to your subconscious, and put NEW emotions on that "trigger".
So that when something happens in the present day... you aren't triggered back to that subconscious trauma or bad memory.
ANYWHO... in doing that... you're digging up the past.
past hurt, painful memories etc.
It will get worse before it gets better type thing.

So although therapy is going great, and i will be continuing to go... Speaking Up, is whats helping the most. Not feeling Silenced or tied down.
Feeling that freedom of the chains being broken, and that im free to be me again!
Talk about my life.
Cuz thats what helps me!
(refer back to my 10 years of blogging and Vlogging on youtube. Its what i do.)


So i just wanted to write this post explaining the meaning behind Shadow man.
But i mostly want others to know they are not alone.
EVERYONE is dealing with mental illness in some way.
You can't be "Crazy" but everyone else deals with it too. Or maybe we are just ALL crazy haha.

I recorded a Youtube video educating on Mental Abuse, Narcissistic Abuse, Depression... And most importantly, how to protect yourself in the future from it. And how to heal :)
as soon as im done editing it, ill post it.

I truly hope my vulnerability helps at least one person.
Stay tuned :)



Wednesday, October 31, 2018

Shadow Man

Every day I wake up...
I know im not alone.
Theres a dark cloud the hovers,
It always makes itself known.

This shadow has no form,
Its not a trick or a scam.
I gave this shadow a name,
I call him... shadow man...

Sometimes he lurks from afar and keeps his distance.
Other times he's breathing down my neck no matter my resistance.

He doesn't have empathy and he has no boundaries.
Some days he's stays uncomfortably close with his dark arms around me.

Life could be great and ill be wearing my crown.
But then the darkness moves in and shadow man knocks me down.

Ill find my strength and start to get on my feet.
But shadow man will be there to ensure my retreat.

I try to tell him to leave but he's quick to revoke.
Its hard to speak up when his hands are at my throat.

I call out for help, can't anyone else see him?
But all their backs are turned away, and shadow man starts to grin.

He whispers in my ear and tells me that no one will come.
I have no friends, and no where to run.

Sleep is the only time im free from his grasp.
Its the only time I escape the words he speaks with a graveled rasp.

I hate waking up, for this is a fight I fight daily,
But the fight runs me down, and i start to believe the lies he tells me.

My body is tired, my mind is weak.
Life becomes dark, lonely and bleak.

The less I fight him, Shadow man gives me more space.
But his hateful words fill my head, and my heart starts to race.

My strength is all gone, im not in a good mental state.
I give all my power and surrender to his hate.

I can't get off the floor, above me he stands.
I look up at him and see my soul in his hands.

Stunned, i stand up and all i could do is stare.
My soul in the hands of a man who doesn't care.

A sight so unnerving, im gone, so it would seem.
Everything inside me is numb, all I see is his gleam..

Anger rushes over me when I see his dark smile.
An unfamiliar emotion I haven't felt in a while.

As the anger rushed in, more emotions followed.
The room starts to spin from the reality pill I just swallowed.

Like a time warp it hits me, and re-enters my soul.
Its time I fight back, Its MY life, IM in control.

Just as fast as he arrived, Shadow man is ripped away.
Relief rushes over me, for its the end of the game I hate to play.

Ill find myself again and pick up the pieces.
Ill soak it all up, until the illness unleashes.
Ill enjoy my life until it all hits the fan.
For he always comes back........

Till we meet again,
                                Shadow Man.

-Christa Cox


Image Cred: Jim Harold 






Monday, October 8, 2018

Depression || Truth & Help



Sharing my life struggles and tips to help others going through similar stuff.

Depression is BAD now a days. SO many are effected.

Suicide hotline: 1-800-273-8255
Support Groups: 
-https://www.facebook.com/groups/1611863342453145/
-https://www.facebook.com/groups/anxietysupport4u/






My Email: Chrissyann336@yahoo.com
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FITNESS CHANNEL:
https://www.youtube.com/user/chrissya...

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Surgery Stuff

**Here is a link to my Fb Closed Group!**
You must be FEMALE, had or having plastic surgery, then MESSAGE ME on fb to join!

Mommy Makeover/ Cosmetic Surgery Group:
https://www.facebook.com/groups/95255...

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Social Media:
Snapchat: ChristaCox3
Blog: http://christanncox.blogspot.com/
Instagram: http://instagram.com/christacox3
Instagram{family/makeup}: http://instagram.com/christacox2
Pinterest: http://www.pinterest.com/youngnrestle...
Twitter: https://twitter.com/#!/ChristaCox3
FB: https://www.facebook.com/christa.cox3
Keek: http://www.keek.com/christacox3
Vine: Christa Cox

Links to videos you might like!

*WeightLoss Video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l_8fC6...
*Truth About PP Bodies Blog Post: http://christanncox.blogspot.com/2013...
*WHY im getting a tummy tuck: http://www.christanncox.blogspot.com/...

The Damaging Truth About "Ghosting"

Sharing my life struggles and tips to help others going through similar stuff. Ghosting is SO prevalent now a days with social media so i wanted to discuss the damage it does. Website i referenced: phychologytoday.com

My Email: Chrissyann336@yahoo.com -------------------------------------- FITNESS CHANNEL: https://www.youtube.com/user/chrissya... ----------------------- Surgery Stuff **Here is a link to my Fb Closed Group!** You must be FEMALE, had or having plastic surgery, then MESSAGE ME on fb to join! Mommy Makeover/ Cosmetic Surgery Group: https://www.facebook.com/groups/95255... ------------------------------------------ Social Media: Snapchat: ChristaCox3 Blog: http://christanncox.blogspot.com/ Instagram: http://instagram.com/christacox3 Instagram{family/makeup}: http://instagram.com/christacox2 Pinterest: http://www.pinterest.com/youngnrestle... Twitter: https://twitter.com/#!/ChristaCox3 FB: https://www.facebook.com/christa.cox3 Keek: http://www.keek.com/christacox3 Vine: Christa Cox Links to videos you might like! *WeightLoss Video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l_8fC6... *Truth About PP Bodies Blog Post: http://christanncox.blogspot.com/2013... *WHY im getting a tummy tuck: http://www.christanncox.blogspot.com/...



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