I think what it all breaks down to is my thyroid! Its been 8 months now of busting my A** with diets and working out and NOTHING. They keep increasing and increasing my meds and yet it is ALWAYS off. Its so FRUSTRATING! You guys dont even understand the level of frustration!
8 effing months of always staying positive and hoping for the best and never giving up. Well i guess its just all taking a toll on me now. Its the base of all the things spiralling out of control. I cant even handle my emotions. I so badly just want to shut down and give up.
I Know hope i can pull out of this rut soon. Its just not me to be acting this way.
All i can say is i CANT WAIT till the beginning of December when we can just get away! Get out of freaking Utah haha.
All i can say is i CANT WAIT till the beginning of December when we can just get away! Get out of freaking Utah haha.
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Anyway... on to wordless wednesday.
We bounce from summer to winter... so here is one of our summer days.
We went on a bike ride.
Adventuring is dangerous! lol
And this happened BEFORE i got on the bike, from the bike haha
i love my little girls :)
(i especially love how me and bray and posing
and makaibree is just like "you guys are LAME" haha)
:( lol.
Yes i was being a baby over my deep lacerations haha.
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I can relate to the depression and the feeling of being "friendless". A LOT.
I was going to write a blog post about how I am feeling lately, but decided to just keep it in my drafts.
You are not alone. I know online friends, close friends, your man, your child sometimes just aren't enough. Depression is such a bitch. :(
Hugs to you! Seriously!!! <33 xoxo
I wish I could say more to help. Just know that you ARE loved by so many people and you are not alone. Ever <33
I feel so isolated sometimes too. Hang in there girl!
I'm the same way. I feel like I have to make the effort to see any of even my (supposed to be) close friends.
Sometimes I feel like my dogs are the only people I can depend on and it sucks:(
But hang in there! You ARE NOT alone with the way you are feeling, alot of us go through the same things:)
I feel ya, girl! I have NO one where we live. Almost my entire family moved to AL over a year ago, my sis is here but she lives 30 minutes away and works a lot so I don't see her as much as I'd like. I went through total sh*t with a couple of girls a year or so ago that I thought were really good friends and since then I don't want to bother even trying to be someone's friend anymore. I have no one here and I'm incredibly lonely, I guess that's why the blogging world means so much to me because your guys are my "friends" right now! I just wish I had someone to actually do stuff with and spend time with....But cheer up! I'm sure your thyroid has ALOT to do with your emotional state besides the side effects of just having the issue itself. I really do hope they can get it worked out though and soon.
I think everyone is just in a slump right now due to the weather and season. Take it day by day and when I feel depressed I make myself think of something my kids have done that is silly and can make me smile and that seems to help.
I hear ya love!!! I'm in the same boat, only I can understand why my family doesn't visit often...its a 4.5 hour drive >.<
You definitely aren't alone! <3
I am sorry you're having such a tough time. I think as women we all have times when we get in a rut like that...and I am sure your thyroid doesn't make it any better. I will be thinking about you and praying for you!
And I agree with dramaticmama...you're definitely NOT alone!
xoxoxoxoxo
Oh and these pictures are just fabulous. That one of the sunglasses in the grass rocks my socks!!
You are not the only one, I've always said there is something abou the weather or the environment here that does that to you. So many people turn weird and secluded...hope where you are going is somewhere warm ;)
You are definitely not alone. I have been struggling with a number of things lately. And it seems like I'm struggling on my own. (Even though in my case, I do see my family on a constant basis)
Just keep your head up and know that it will get better.
Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.
I can totally relate to how you're feeling. I'm currently going through that as well, but I don't have that "close nit" group of friends. It totally sucks, and you are so not alone!
And, I love all of your pictures! All three of you are adorable!
I hope you feel better! I cannot even imagine how it must be with your thyroid condition. I feel down, lonely and overwhelmed too; compounded with your thyroid condition must be no bueno. Just know that you aren't alone. We all feel that way from time to time. It will get better.
melissa @ knit purl baby
hugs to you, i hope that you feel better soon and get out of this rut. great pictures. i'm a total baby too when i get cuts.
You poor thing!! I have to agree with all the other comments! While i don't know what it's like to have thyroid issues i can relate to the loneliness and wondering wer the heck every ones gone when you need them! I hope and pray things come right for you and they get your meds sorted!! Hang in there, your so loved!!
Like everyone else said..you are not alone. I think most have these feelings at some point. Sucks when its your time to experience them but there is light at the end. It will get better. Head up girl.
Also, I work with a lady that has struggled with her thyroid problem just like you. Shes tried everything to lose weight with no success until recently. She did the Dukan Diet (kate middleton) and lost 20 lbs in 5 weeks. Worth looking into. Good Luck!
I'm right there with ya! Moving six states away has definitely taken a toll on me - like everyone has been saying, you're definitely not alone and things will get better!! I'm so sorry after all this time your thyroid is stilll making things so difficult : ( That has really got to be frustrating and I hope you're feeling better!
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